Sent in anonymously by a Logan High student
Bullying is a problem that affects millions of students of all races and classes. 1 out of 4 kids is bullied and, depending on age, the percentage of online bullying has risen to about 43%. Some kids are so tormented that they have committed suicide. School bullying has probably been around since about the 17th or 18th century. It is something that has evolved along with the mind and brain. Bullying started with kids picking on each others or parents believing that they were teaching their kids “discipline” by beating them. Bullying also resulted from people stereotyping others, such as by race or gender.Now, kids and teenagers all around the world are using technology as a way to bully people online. Whether through mean text messages, rumors sent by email or posted on social networking sites, embarrassing pictures, videos, websites, or fake profiles, bullies spread information that can be very damaging to victims. In addition, victims are likely to be bullied in person as well.
Victims are more likely to start using alcohol, skip school, and start receiving bad qualifications. They tend to stop doing what they normally did, what made them happy. Their mood goes a different direction and are many are known to experience severe depression. They start distancing themselves away from everyone and start having problems at home, such as aggressive behavior or just spending too much time by themselves.
"I couldn't take it anymore. I had suicidal thoughts."
I am aware of the story of one student who was bullied to an extreme in one point in her life, and it still follows her to this day. She is currently attending Logan High School and is 17. She was 14 when she was being cyber bullied, and it all started when she was in 8th grade. She was being accused of making fake profiles by a person she used to call a friend. This person would always bring her down by calling her inappropriate names and fat. She lived her days being bullied on social media and it got to a point where she couldn’t take it.
In her own words, “I couldn’t take it anymore. I had suicidal thoughts.”
She then got left alone for a while, up until freshman year. This person came back and started haunting her again, but this time it wasn’t only one person: there were two others involved. They kept making fun of her weight, and she said their words words “still get to me a lot till this day.”
During this period she also went through a hard time with her family. Her parents were filing divorce papers and her grandpa had tested positive for cancer. The bullying never stopped. To this day the bullies still threaten her and verbally abuse her.
I wish to say now that the above story is mine. When I was young I never thought of ever encountering a situation like that. I loved school and every subject that was taught. I was a straight A student, and I got certificate after certificate when I was young. I was 14 years old when I started experiencing bullying. I remember every day that I suffered being at school.
It all started because I was friends with almost all the guys in my middle school. I mean, I grew up with guys, knowing them and understanding them better than most girls, and I think that’s why I always got along with them better. Girls hated me for that. That was their trigger to treat me like I was nothing. Everyday I would wake up hoping I could get through the day or even hoping I wouldn’t have to go to school. Every time they saw me they wouldn’t hesitate to tell me things, mostly just inappropriate words.
I fell into depression, hard. It felt like it would never end. I could have stepped up for myself; I could have made them look so foolish in front of everyone. I never did. I was to afraid to be severely hurt, but mostly I didn’t want to put my mom through what my brothers put her through. I didn’t want to disappoint her.
I remember one time it got to the point where one of girls hit my head onto the stall wall of the bathroom, and ever since that day I suffer from severe migraines. I remember I tried suicide, and to this day it still gets to me. The thoughts don’t go away, and the truth is nothing will ever go away. I stand up for myself now, but I’m just afraid to hurt someone severely. I have so much anger in me I’m afraid I won’t be able to control it. My life has fallen apart because of the bullying. I still struggle with school and my grades, I don’t trust anyone anymore, and to this day my life is empty because of what happened to me. I still have depression, but it’s gotten worse and my migraines are still there. I wish this for no one, but the world is what it is.
Bullying is not a game. It hurts people, and it can lead them to death. I don’t think teens really realize how much even one hurtful word can really damage someone. All it takes is one word or one action. The memories and the thoughts don’t ever go away, no matter how many sorries and how many “‘l’ll be there for you’s” there are.